I'm Rambling

Monday, 17 August 2009

Thursday, 05 February 2009

  • Veg

    Wow, just signed in for the first time in a long time. Really, nobody posts here anymore. How does Xanga even stay in business. Anyway going to bed now, leaving for Enchanted Rock tomorrow after work for a weekend of climbing. Very much needed.

    Oh, and I'm vegetarian now with a high raw food intake. NEVER thought I would ever do something like this. And I think I am to the point now I can't even go back if I wanted. A few weeks ago I at a small piece of red meat just to see how it affected me. It turned my stomach into knots. Crazy. I guess the plus side is if I am green on the inside I am also clean on the inside :).

Sunday, 10 August 2008

  • Moving on

    I have officially decided to stop blogging here (on Xanga). From now on, any blog I post I will just add to Facebook, and I may end up creating a catch all blog for photography and personal outlet. I was just going to close the account down completely, but I can't find the option to do that, and then I realized I may want to go back one day and reference old posts just for the heck of it.

    I have a lot going on in my my head right now though. God is teaching me A LOT right now. I will likely be posting on FB soon. I'm likely just going to post some of the things I have been reading lately that have encouraged me. So, seeing as how everybody I know that still reads this is also on FB, just look for it there.

    Adios, I'm a ghost.

Saturday, 02 August 2008

  • A True Servant

    Lately I have pulled out some of my old Puritan literature and begun reading them again for a second time. I am currently reading The Godly Man's Picture, by Thomas Watson. He had some really encouraging words in regards to being a servant unto Christ...

    One thing that really struck me was when he simply pointed out Rom. 6:22, The wages of sin is death... He says, "it's a damnable pay". I had never thought about it like this before. When we live to sin, our pay is to be damned. Very interesting. He also says...

    "If he has short commons, he does not find fault. He knows he is a servant, and accepts his mater's carving"

    "When Christians complain about their condition, they forget they are servants, and must live on the allowance of their heavenly Master. You who have the least bit from God will die in his debt."

    "A godly man will follow Christ through afflictions" He then points to Luke 9:23, If any man will come after me, let him take up his cross daily...

    "A servant not only wears his mater's livery, but he does his work, thus a godly man WORKS for God."

    "The godly are God's servants; they must not do what they want, but be under the rules of the family; the must do nothing but what they can show their master's authority for"

    And this is something we pray for when we say the Lord's prayer, "Thy will be done". I have always loved that part of the Lord's prayer the most, but yet I tend to remain selfish. But the Lord is definitely starting to reveal this more and more in my heart and is helping me to work on that.

    I hope you find encouargement in these words as well and live with a Kingdom approach in all that you do. Remember, you are a servant of the Lord.








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Monday, 28 July 2008

  • Sheol

    Man, I am so ready to get out of this Texas heat for a while. I thought last year was bad, and we barely had a single day exceed 100 degrees. This year we near 100+ degrees every day. I'm ready for the cool mountain air of Colorado. So far it looks like the trip is a go, but details have yet to be worked out, which makes me a bit nervous. Hopefully details begin to work them self out soon.

    Aside from longing to be on vacation I am beginning to see a lot of crap in my life hat I need to deal with. I have decided to attend Celebrate Recovery at the Village. I almost feel like I am cheating on my Church by doing that, but we are so small right now and don't offer anything this in depth to tackle deep rooted sins. There has been many things I have been clinging to for a few years now and have been pretty much too prideful to admit.

    I had decided a few days before the break-up with Kristy that I was probably going to do it, but once that happened it pushed me over the edge. One thing this has helped me to see is that I don't trust God as much as I thought I did. There are so many ways a fail to trust Him and this is just one of many. I think the biggest thing I need to work on is loving others. I have been pretty selfish for a long time, and even when I was active in some way serving I never gave it my all. I really need God to transform my heart because I know I don't have it in me on my own.

    I am not super excited about going through recovery and I am somewhat frustrated already that I haven't seen immediate results, but Dave preached a point in his sermon the other day that gave me some encouragement. He talked about how change doesn't happen overnight, it is a process and has to be worked towards, and God will deal with it appropriately in His timing.

    I am at a point right no were I feel alone and see just how depraved I am and how much I truly need Jesus to satisfy me. I know that no one relationship will cure me, but I do see and recognize that we are wired for intimate relationships and still long to be married one day, but at the same time see that if I can't be content with God right now in the state I am, I never will be.